The company doesn't need my decision until February. I have not really made up my mind. This Christmas we are having to juggle families and visit many people.

My mom is having some stupid issue because A. wants to bring a carrot cake as well as whatever other dish of food we are going to take. She keeps wandering around the house repeating "but I'm making pumpkin pie".

I have a feeling that the best part of this holiday will be December 26.

I'm glad someone is still reading. Maybe I should post more often.

Mood: Apathetic | Music: Knock Me Down - Redhot Chili Peppers

Stormy Seas, Unrest Hearts

I realize that I rarely post. I tend to start things and not finish them; it is one of the many things about myself that I would change-- if only I knew where to start.

I am feeling...
unrest
lost
uncertain


They want me to take the job back east (read: boston) on a permenant basis. They have made one extremely tempting offer which includes relocation costs and housing costs will be covered for the first year. PLUS many other benefits.

If I choose to take it it means I will cause someone who doesn't deserve anything less than the best of everything in life - suffering and sadness.

I will possibly have single-handedly screwed up one serisouly good relationship with one seriously good man.

.and I can't really explain why, or at least not here. I don't mean to be annoyingly vague. I dont mean to be dramatic and full of self pity. I just hope the choice I make - in the long run - turn out to be the right one.

Does ANYONE read this any more?

Mood: Confused | Music: Billy Joel - Goodnight my Angel